Believe me - you need hell lot of money to make a movie, and that was the only constraint I had. I wanted to make my movie with the least expense hence I had to format the script in a way that I don't have to spend on casts (all the actors in the movie are amateurs and most faced the camera for the first time in their lives), location (the whole movie was shot in one single apartment except for one shot), and special effects (I never used any). On the other hand I was completely ready to spend on cinematography, editing and background score had I come across someone who never threw an attitude or had a lesser ego.
"Kya chutiya picture hai....pura time waste (what an idiotic movie it is....I wasted my time watching it)." That was the first comment I got after I posted my 40 mns short movie 'FEAR' on youtube. I of course have not made the comment public on youtube - because I personally neither believe in giving equal rights to everyone nor I think everyone should be given the choice to voice their opinion. If given the power to comment people, who weren't able to lift a cricket bat properly in their entire life, give their valuable inputs even to Sachin Tendulkar.
Parliamentarian Shashi Tharoor had got married thrice. In the first two instances he got divorced and the third time his wife was found dead. The same is somewhat true with yesteryear actress Rekha. Whenever she came close to getting married to someone the actors either died or met with serious injuries. And finally when she got married to Mukesh Aggarwal, a Delhi based industrialist, the married didn't last for more than a year. Mukesh Aggarwal committed suicide too.
I had come across these terms - production, distribution, consumption, cost, supply and demand etc - but never took much interest in understanding them as I was busy experimenting with subjects like science, religion, astrology and sex. Economics obviously sounded a lot boring when compared to the subjects that interested me. It was the price of a bottle of 'Coke - Coca Cola' in three different countries that made me understand how economics works - I am sure 'Gods must be really crazy".
Close to a decade back I saw a toddler at one of my well wisher's (who happens to be an astrologer himself) house. Looking at the little girl, it was easy to visualise her horoscope, and I could not see any planetary combinations that will bring Raja Yogas for her. With a sunken heart I looked at my well wisher and asked, "what is the purpose of this child's existence. I cannot see any big luck or luxuries or prosperity coming into her life." And he replied, "she is my maid's daughter. And yeah you are right she doesn't have any Raja Yogas. But then everything happens, because God wants it to happen."